Some of you may remember my good old winter cape. Now guess what? It gets even too cold for Ol' Reliable. It's time I get my search for a new, warm, long, cozy wintercoat started and if I had the money ( hey. it's christmas soon and I still need to get all gifts together !) I would SO love to get one of the coats the girls of anywho designed.
And I know, they get posted on nearly every blog these days and I'm really sorry you've got to see them again here, but I can't deny something good. I really really like the 'Manuella' coat.
i took this video the other day on the way to my friend's place.
it's not really, that i'm into all that christmas related decorations - i'm usually not even in the mood for it till it's over - but i do love to look at all those 'normal' light installations. when the whole city is covered in those tiny little lights(at night) it's one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen.
on a bit more unrelated note: it's getting freakin' cold over here these days so i began to get my hands on some nice warm basic things like long-sleeves, thermo leggings(let's see how long i can put off wearing real pants this year) and such.
one of the things i was looking for was a new cardigan. i once owned the perfect one from h&m but i managed to lose it some months ago and since then i was on a desperate hunt for a new one. sometimes i would even buy one but always end up returning it. now i finally settled for one from zara, though it's not 'perfect'. well, it's the closest it can get.
what i got myself, too (though it doesn't even has sleeves. but let's ignore that.) is this awesome vest. worn over my new long-sleeve like dress, it keeps my torso really warm. you saw it already in my earlier post.
i've developed some habits over the years. E.g. i constantly forget things at my friend's places. this time it's my camera and it's still at inga's. she does not know that though since it's currently 5.30 in the morning and she's asleep. i just arrived at my (locked) door and am waiting for my father to get up and open the door. but because I got nothing else to do, i am pre-writing this on my cellphone, hitting the light switch now and then. (still somewhat afraid of the dark) so. i decided, that this blog has to head into a different direction or it doesn't make any sense to keep it. but I am not willing to let go of my baby yet.
that said, i feel a lot better, though i guess i should at least give you guys a heads up and tell you that this will become a lot more personal and surely a bit more random than before and you should really consider if you still want to follow my blog and cope with all that. if you don't, feel free to unfollow me. no hard feelings.
went to buy some things.
well, actually return a dress but since i couldn't get my money back i got some jewellery.
and those fox tails. they aren't the best ones but they were cheap (0.95€ !) and i somehow don't like real fur.
( i even got two in black and attached one to my cellphone. tihihi.)
don't know why, sometimes i get a bit pissed when i see people with real fur but i don't when i see real leather.
my mind is strange, i know. i don't understand me either, but i'm working on it.
sometimes, it 'shocks' (more like surprise but i miss the right word right now) me when i notice, that there are still 'kids' out there, getting into vk NOW. some day i have to really realize that it wasn't a phase thing at the same time for everyone and that everyone got out of it long ago. well, not everyone, but you get the point.
i loved that time and all my friends did, too but i don't now anyone anymore that's still into it, except for the music maybe.
and then i see pictures of 'kids' (the most of them are kids but we all know those creepy 30ish people on cons, right?) looking like we did back in the day, when we stil haven't got the hang of it and posing like we did. man, those were really emberassing pictures and they probably are still online and i wish nobody important ever sees them again, or something but when it comes down to it, i would stand behind what i did. because that still is my life i'm living and i wouldn't want to change anything.
sometimes i wish back those times.
i bet i'm not the only one out there thinking like that about their old 'scene'.
not the best picture. :( it was dark when i arrived and the flash light of my camera sucks big time. and the extra thick leggins make my legs even bigger than they already are haha whatever, as long as it's warm.
some guys at a party later were flashed by me not wearing black. (i want to change the dress abit, make it a bit more balloon-ish)
got rid already of the clothes in my last entry. it just wasn't me and it never will, that's for sure. got some other things today which i see a bright future for in my wardrobe, esp paired with some special shoes ♥ and a very great bag from london. :) when i get time to wear it, i will show you the inspiration aswell.
when i come to think of it, maybe i'll do a whole post of inspiration about one special blogger, very soon. just with her postings, she made me realize a bit more who i want to be someday. at least style-wise.
i guess you all know very well that i am more of the .. 'black' type of girl.. but when my eyes fell on this picture, i just fell in love with the outfit. not that i would feel comfortable in it, but i do think it is really pretty.
do you ever get confused? about styles i mean. sure, there are people who sport more than one style..
thing is, i don't want my blog to be different day to day but to go into one direction only, style-wise. that's my problem. there is this ideal i have in my head. how i want my style to be one day and then comes something that is just so.. great that i am willing to abandon my ideal. but i never know if my affection for this other style will be for longer or just a week and then i get tired of it. i never know.
so i always keep myself in this little box, surrounded by my ideal. and i'll never know. the day i decide to just dress from day to day will be the dead for this blog, i bet. though i am not too active these days, either. sorry about that. i don't see the point in getting dressed up really. i still need to look for internships and part-time jobs but i have none right now so i don't have many reasons to leave the house since i don't have a train ticket, either. can't do anything. so all i do is watching tv shows, drinking tea or reading some murakami. which isn't that bad at all.
anyways, still main question: do you know this dilemma?
plus: i can't even afford to have different styles. i don't have the money OR the space haha
well that's it for now, i guess. never wrote that much at once for this blog. never wanted it to be too personal and focused on inspiration.
i'll just skip a day with the london outfits. you know that situation where i dislike an outfit you were just wearing some days ago? i hate it. or i suddenly start to dislike the outfit i am wearing but can't do anything about it.
so i will just show you this little outfit that's not really different from the first one but i'll do it anyways.
shirt shoes H&M pants C&A bag primark
julia with her awesome new topshop pants ! wanted them too but were sold out in my size..
following the next days i will show you some impressions of london ( i am waiting for the pictures marija took ) and some of my/our outfits. i really love london and want to come back really soon so i have to start looking for a job as soon as possible.
pants C&A shirt new yorker shoes H&M bag primark scarf diy
would've looked better with different shoes but my feet hurt already and i wasn't in the posession of my new babies back then.